the voice within my tempered mind
shall not speak when i rewind,
recall the efforts love has made
where stitches in my heart have frayed
to love, to dream, where do i start
but here and now, i must depart.

just another day;

of wanting to grow up far too quickly.

~

up in the clouds and far behind
the dreams in which you did remind,
me of the days where close we grew
and then i fell in love with you.

Yesterday...

I had such a bad day. I nearly cried 4 times, and finally a little tear rolled down my cheek when I was on the train.. great. I felt as if i'd made a mistake. The wrong mistake at that. Stuck in a rut that I couldn't get out of. So, nearly crying just made me feel like a child again. I was suddenly back in year 8, crying in my maths lesson because I couldn't balance equations. Unlike then, this matters - this is my job, possibly my future. So i sat in my lecture, not understanding what was going on; since when did I like Optics, I love English, and I couldn't figure out why I was sat there; its a job. That's it. I have a job for at least 3 years, so in reality that job security. But really? I'm so angry at myself I passed up the oppurtunity to do soemthing I love - even if I wouldn't be able to get a job at the end of it. I don't know why I felt sad.. I was just annoyed.
This is where my friends come in. An hour phonecall later, and the reasoning - you didn't quite english when you didn't know what a hyperbole was - I was fine.

Back on track <3

Just leave..

you know nothing. You wind me up. Embarrass me. And you make me want to cry.
But I can't get rid of you.

I love you too, but I just can't smile.

I miss you

more than I thought I would.

♥

I just want to be held,
to be hugged,
to be loved.
to keep falling
but never get hurt.
to get lost with you
but never lose you
to keep you and never let go
because i love you.