I like travelling..

but never go anywhere

Fact.

Each time I look into your eyes
I see our love - and my demise
This love was meant to set us free
not three-nil, a victory? For you or me
I sit and cry; don't ask - I won't tell you why.
Today you hurt me. Once again.
But can we last on this terrain?

wow..

would like to run away for a day.

The world is very big.

Protect me O lord for my boat is so small,
Protect me O lord for my boat is so small,
Protect me O lord for my boat is so small,

Your sea is so wide.

the voice within my tempered mind
shall not speak when i rewind,
recall the efforts love has made
where stitches in my heart have frayed
to love, to dream, where do i start
but here and now, i must depart.

just another day;

of wanting to grow up far too quickly.

~

up in the clouds and far behind
the dreams in which you did remind,
me of the days where close we grew
and then i fell in love with you.

Yesterday...

I had such a bad day. I nearly cried 4 times, and finally a little tear rolled down my cheek when I was on the train.. great. I felt as if i'd made a mistake. The wrong mistake at that. Stuck in a rut that I couldn't get out of. So, nearly crying just made me feel like a child again. I was suddenly back in year 8, crying in my maths lesson because I couldn't balance equations. Unlike then, this matters - this is my job, possibly my future. So i sat in my lecture, not understanding what was going on; since when did I like Optics, I love English, and I couldn't figure out why I was sat there; its a job. That's it. I have a job for at least 3 years, so in reality that job security. But really? I'm so angry at myself I passed up the oppurtunity to do soemthing I love - even if I wouldn't be able to get a job at the end of it. I don't know why I felt sad.. I was just annoyed.
This is where my friends come in. An hour phonecall later, and the reasoning - you didn't quite english when you didn't know what a hyperbole was - I was fine.

Back on track <3